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So my first NST went well, and I "passed." Can you ace an NST? Anyway nobodyapos;s worried. I felt like the felt taking her heartrate was going to fall off with how slippery my belly was... They gel you a bit like with the microphone for the heartbeat during a checkup, and I had a ton of St. Ives lotion all over my belly (when the Benadryl only half worked and I figured it might partially be dryness bothering me too at this point, I tried the lotion too because it has aloe and chamomile in it to soothe). But it stayed, lol.

I apparently had two contractions during it. BHapos;s of course, because I didnapos;t feel a thing. What I felt more was the fact that I had to pee and Anya kept moving around and stretching But that was pretty much the easiest medical test of my life. I listened to my little girlapos;s heartbeat and read a book. 20 min., badda bing, badda boom.

Drove by Momapos;s house and Grandpaapos;s, and she was at neither, but I thought she had told me she wasnapos;t working Friday, so I called her and found out she was at the Museum, but just for fun, and she was getting something she liked for herself in the gift shop. So I met up with her there to have lunch in the employee dining room (thank God neither Jeff nor Stephanie were there.... Bitchface shit-talking whore). Then Mom realized she had to pick Robby up from school, so we scrambled without going to see the temporary exhibit there to go get him. Then as soon as we do he asks if he can go to Del Taco with his friends, lol. It was funny. And my mom gave him a dollar, realizing sheapos;d spent the rest of her money on lunch, hahaha. So she asked his friend who was right there if she could lend Robby the money for now and heapos;d pay her back. We were all laughing because it was just so rediculous that she even gave Robby the dollar, lol.

Well I had rode with my mom to go get him because we thought weapos;d be going back to the Museum to see the exhibit after we got Robby, until we realized that since Iapos;d planned to go to the Social Security office in Dearborn while I was there that I should probably do that first, so we just drove back to the Cutlass to get my marriage license and then headed over there. Got it done fairly quickly; it wasnapos;t a long wait. Iapos;ll get my new card in 7-10 days, and the lady said she wouldnapos;t advise going back to the Secretary of State for my license in the meantime because I might still run into the same problem. Even though my name has officially been changed, their system has just newly (within the last month) merged with the Secretary of State. So in other words, that explains my entire problem. I was able to change my name the first time at the Sec. Of State because Iapos;d gone some time in August before this took effect. This time, even though my license already said "Hornisch," it has to match with Soc. Security or no-go. Anyway, so whatever. Iapos;ll just renew my license after the baby. I could care less... I wonapos;t be driving much in the next couple of weeks anyway, and I donapos;t look forward to going back there by any means. Cranky people. O.o

Then we went back to the Museum one more time so I could get the Cutlass, and met up over at Grandpaapos;s for dinner. My mom forgot that he was going away for a weekend retreat though. But Dad and Robby came over, and Mom showed me how to make my favorite meal, tuna, potatoes and peas. It sounds gross, but itapos;s really not. Itapos;s all mixed in to this really delicious cream sauce and......... OOOOOOMG just trust me, okay? DEEEEEELISH. XDDDDD So I had two plates of it And then we had the brownies that Robby made

I was getting pretty cozy on the couch for a while there. Didnapos;t sleep, but I kept slinging my arm over my eyes... I was propped up against my pillow that I brought with me under a quilt... My mom and I were just messing around with our phones, sending each other pictures, lol, and I erased her inbox and sent folders for her since she had so many texts they were slowing her phoneapos;s memory down, lol... And then I was just chit-chatting with my dad and brother about this and that.

Then I went home. And ended up eating some cereal, lol and I took a shower. This morning, since I was so tired, I pretty much woke up at 10:45, and left at 11 in time for the NST at 11:30. But I regretted not showering because I was gross all day. Anyway it was really nice to see my family again. I feel at least somewhat less stressed and nervous about L D around them, if you can believe that. Iapos;m still scared, but itapos;s almost like with them and especially my mom itapos;s somehow that much easier to imagine dealing with. I donapos;t know why I donapos;t feel that way with Florian. I guess lately heapos;s just been kind of absent again, so Iapos;m tense around him. Honestly, as of late, his fault completley or not, all I get from him is stress when it comes to my sleeping arrangement, and a night of cats running around, knocking shit over, and beating the shit out of each other, with Bandit (thatapos;s what we named the kitten) squealing. I donapos;t even get words of encouragement anymore. Nothing. He listens, but thatapos;s it. So I donapos;t even talk to him. I just keep it inside until I can talk to someone who actually as something to say. Lately that person has been my mom.

Alright. Well anyway. On a side note, Iapos;m pretty sure itapos;s my cervix, what else could it be, has been sore. Like all day since I went to the museum. Maybe even before. Her head is definitely way in there now, and Iapos;ve been having mild contractions, mostly tightness and pressure, and I wonder if itapos;s causing me to dilate? I thought you couldnapos;t feel it if youapos;re dilated though. Maybe it depends. I donapos;t know, but something kinda hurts on and off. Itapos;s tolerable, just annoying.

I just hope that if itapos;s gonna be stronger than that on B-day, that the epidural takes care of not just my abdomen, but my cervix/vagina too. This is scary
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